i didnt slp for whole day again. rollin on bed till 7am and gave up.
did house work, chattin wit eileen loves.
and waited for time to pass.
jus to meet baby.
when standin on the weightin machine, seein my weight unchange.
i jus feel veri shock and first thing in mind is, baby not growin!?
last two weeks
my weight is 48.8kg and baby is 1.37kg.
today check up. my weight is 48.8kg and baby is 1.738kg
i am of course glad that baby weight is normal. and she is healthy.
but of course.
doc did say i am losin weight obviously for baby.
and currently havin slpness nite, bad appetite has alreadi become a no choice ler.
cos baby is growin well and pressin on my organs.
so it makes mi weaker and weaker as baby is growin.
which means i have to tahan till baby out.
to most of the ppl who onli concern about baby but not mi will not noe anithing de.
i told dad when i woke up for dinner jus now.
he was shock and stare at mi.
and he says he got a frenx daughter.
who baby is olso pressin too much on her organs, and end up effect her lungs.
dad didnt blame mi for eating so less.
but he say jus force myself eat.
of course for my case. even doc say.
c-sec is better.
cos in case i reali reali cant take it, anitime before baby edd date
i could do c-sect to take her out ler.
but i reali would love to have her out naturally.
so i will try de ba.
i heard alot of things today again!
and i reali reali cant believe in u animore.
don expect much from mi ler.
everything jus freakin mi off.
and suddenly i jus feel veri stress and freak out.
i am totally not in the mood to listen to ur stuff.
u are such a gd actor and liar!
afterall blame it on myself, cos i trusted u.
u are reali scary!
i nv blame u for anithing!
being irresponsible, i have let u be.
being immature, i accept it.
talk to mi personally if u wan too.
don get ur parent to talk to mi.
if u dare to talk to mi, don be such a gd actor ler.
i reali seen through u ler.
how do u expect mi tellin baby she had such a daddy.
silly mi still thought of givin u a chance again.
and thing happen again.
u jus love pissin mi off.
but i guess u are happi ba, seein i am so weak to bully mi.
gd for u ba.
u nv noe and love mi.
xuemin.