i am suppose to be restin now.
but same thing. rolling on bed till bth and woke up ler.
my family has been having alot of quarrels.
about the quarrel today is about my brother.
he disappoint mi alot.
i didnt slp for the whole nite ytsd
partly is couldnt slp.
but i realize i could have jus lie on my bed rather then doin those test paper for him to do.
as his primary one examination is comin soon.
he is so clever to look through the answer sheets behind to get answer from the book i lifted the qn from.
he thought i didnt suspect
but i was peeping through my room door waiting for him to do it onli.
but end up scolded by my precious sis and mum for been so strict to him.
i dont understand what did i did wrong this time round.
talkin to junlong.
i cried.
telling him, have he ever think of why i wanna do all this.
and have he ever ask wherede i am feeling well.
he saw i cried, and he cried too.
but i asked him not to act emo infront of mi.
cos to mi is veri fake.
what he did left a veri big impact on mi.
as to baby daddy to hurting mi in this "unintentionally" way where they didnt think much.
i guess is a feeling where nobody will understand.
well well.
i have found alot of my past photos!
wit jayda, ivy, ex bf(don be surprise if i am still keeping those pics!)give u all clue about who is the 2 ex bf i still have the photos?
hahax.
1st one is the guy who took away my first time= my second real r/s
2nd one is the best 24hrs bf i ever had.
ppl who noes mi should noe ba. hahax
and of course my sisters and junlong!
hahax.
so i decided to blog out.
as i guess everybody would love to noe abit by bit ba.
hahax.
looking through those pics.
alot of thing pass my mind
lookin at junlong young pic.
i reali reali love him alot, but the way he has become now.
being the one who looked after him since he was jus born.
teach and slowly bring him up.
jus like my own son.
is he showing mi that i am not a gd sister?
how to be a gd mum when i cant even teach my own brother??
dion has been movin alot after i finish shouting at brother and mum.
perhaps i scared her.
mummy loves her alot!
i didnt have enough slp, so today i manage to force myself to eat at least porridge.
today my breathing reali abit difficult.
i feel so suffocated.
but i guess no choice ba.
i don like the feeling of anitime i might faint.
but has been telling myself to hold on.
felt that my eyes abit swollen.
when i don wish to care ler.
i jus wan baby safe!
reali kinda scare will buay tahan then 2 more weeks go c-sec take baby out ler.
i won allow other ppl carry her first other then mi!!!
hahax
i selfish!
i wan be the first la.
hahax.
she is my precious princess.
so fast gonna give birth real soon!
and is like finally.
i am gonna be free!!!!
hahax
i wanna regain my figure! hahax.
i noe alot of ppl will feel like beating mi when i say this.
cos i am far too slim more then other preg!
but i jus hated my tummy to pop out la.
hahax
i onli gain 5 kg now.
but 23% of 5kg is the maternal stores of fats,protein etc.
25% of 5kg is baby
5% of 5kg is placenta
7% of 5kg is to amniotic fluid which is what they call, water bag!
7% of 5kg is breast
7% of 5kg is uterus
26% of 5kg is blood, body fluids
so after this and that i don gain ani weight myself.
but infact i loses weight!
hahax
but i am prayin hard not to have flabby tummy!!!
hahax
stretch marks too! hahax.
hao la. i abit too naggy again!
time for pics!
i guess i am not bloggin out pics of mi and my ex bfs.
as they are both having a gf now.
no misunderstanding to be made!
hahax.
myabe i should ask them if i see them!
hahax
cos i am sure alot of ppl wan kpo kpo ba!
hahax
horx BABY~! u definately one of them!
hahax
and lastly.
congrats to mikko-cutie, baby first months!
xuemin