26.12.08(a day after christmas)
now workin, so tired. ystd went iko hse.babii and mi didnt go for movie cos his frenx was at iko hse.
so stay there to talk to them olso. i purposely wore a jeans to match him. but he was angry cos of my jeans abit low cut.
he uses my hp to take pics wit iko doggy=) so nice.
but i wasnt that happi cos he and his frenx was chatting about the garlx he use tolike for 8 yrs.
he gave mi a feeling that he cant forget her. haix. so ystd before we slept in my hse. i asked him wherede he forget the garlx? his answer quite unsecure. jus ask mi not to think so much.
but i told him to slp.so today mornin woke up, open my eyes to see him around=) for mi is enough ler ba.
jus now he was smsin mi. tellin mi that we will go register next yr. when our 1 yr anniversary reach.(081209)
i have alreadi agree.but we keepin it as a secret. i asked him about wherede he longed for a babies of his own so much. he sure do. i like babies too. but i don't wanna be a mother is becos, i can nv be a gd mum. but i reali hope to have my own flesh blood.
but i'm contented wit babii wit mi ler. tonite meeting him for movie. but he will miss his soccer games if he watachin movie eith mi.
sorry babii. his handphone low batt,cant sms him.
i am having a bad flu now but i miss him lots.
i read through my dairy. and found this date.
i reali wanna noe what make us end up this way.
had a chat wit his mum today.
she too agree wit us that we was once so happi tgt.
and she say, if we want. we still can be happi as before but wit baby now.
is it possible when after 8 months of conflicts and agurements?
i too become veri veri afraid that i can nv put him out of my heart.
but do we have a choice now?
the answer is NO!.
but thx alot for letting mi have such a pretty dream before.
even for the one day u told mi that u wanna lock mi by urside for 100yrs.
and silly u too wrote a IOU and make mi sign.
i am not cryin this time round.
but i am smiling from the bottom of my heart.
u might not rmb anithing.
but i will rmb everything and keep them deep in my heart jus like how i am lockin u wit mi.
no matter what.
i still trust that, other then ur family
no one has ever love u like i do.
becos i have nv love a person so much before.
pls promise mi be happi.
i did tell u before, i love the way u smile and look at mi.
i love it when u sweet talk to mi.
i jus love it when u smile.
i nv regret lettin u go, neither i will regret being wit u.
what i have by my side now, is all those precious things u left for mi.
memories and baby.
i jus feel upset cos i cant hug u for the last time and tell u i reali reali love u alot.
when i see the time 11:11
i will think of u.
4:44 i olso will.
hahax. rmb?
i realise i couldnt bear to hate u.
not at all.
u are so capable in changing my mind!
"i hate u!!!"
ok, i lie=) hahax.
be happy and move on okie.
thou i reali love being a fool beside u.
but jus to let u noe, xuemin nv change.
if u realise, i am still the girl beside u=)
my lawyer had a car accident!
tupid him=.=!
but guess nth happen ba.
hahax.
i heard was quite serious.
hahax.
but luckily he jus need to be warded for 4 days in general hospital. LMAO
tupid!!how did u drive!?
hahax.
so i can still be able to ask him to meet baby daddy to sign the statement.
hahax.
hopefully his car will be done repairing!
hahax.
sam say is not needed to visit him as i am preg!
hahax.
lolx!!
i am so bad askin sam to "interview" him about the accident
cos i heard he tupid la. go bang onto ppl car for nth!
and i realise is been a long time i talk about my norti princess!
she horx!!!
hahax.
as to MOST OF THE PEOPLE SHOULD NOE.
baby dion is so SELFISH!
hahax.
she won let ppl anihow feel her kick.
and definately.
she is veri famous for this!
hahax.
i think this selfish character is pass down by her daddy.
cos her mummy is nv selfish de!
hahax.
when her daddy cant reali share thing wit others!
hahax.
somehow is not gd!
hahax.
cos ur daddy is tupid!
he is a dumb ass!
HAHAX!
baby dion is makin my stomach more and more bloated!
she cant stop kickin unless i give her food.
and i noe she is veri scare of thunders and lighting like mi.
cos today mornin heavy rain. i was so scare and hide under my blanket.
and i put my tummy so close wit my bloster.
then she stop kickin.
and when the lightings strike to loud and big she starts kickin again.
she woke mi up to eat!
but i guess she and i are seriously so tired of RICE!
i ate the pack of rice that mum buy.
but i haben even finish 1/3 totally no appetite ler.
BABY DION SO CHOOSY!
hahax.
like her daddy olso=)
but she like mi don like to slp much.
hahax.
loves to listen to music.
hahax.
she hates it when i carry MARLEY (a teddy bear, without eyes)
HAHAX!!
and she will get angry if i forget to greet her gd nite and slps!
ppl baby 8 months shouldnt be movin that lots ler.
but mine dion special case.
hahax.
she mus be talented in boxing!
hahax.
or jus like what i am guessin!
she might jus be a boy! but the reason of why we cant see her 'dick' is cos
is too small like her daddy!!!! LMAO!
hahax
i am jk la!
hahax.
hao la.
and lastly.
ivy told mi she dreamt about mi passed away in court!
CHOY!!!
hahax.
nth is gonna happen de rite?
hahax.
i wanna orhxorhx lerx.
aniway!
daddy bought a new phone.
hahax.
wanna psycho him to give it to mi!
lolx!!
WHAT KINDA DAUGHTER AM I!
hahax.
okie la.
nite and sweet dreams=)
xuemin