ystd apple blogged about story about her lil ayden!
so here i am too bloggin about how i found out my princess and thing bit and pieces that ppl would wanna noe.
on 10th of april 2009.
i went to polyclinic in woodlans to do the urine test.
i am prepare havin a positive result.
my mum was the one who went wit mi.
after around 1hr 30 mins of waiting.
finally the doc asked mi to the room.
and he confirm my answer.
and wanted to ask my mum out of the room as he scare i didnt wanna let my mum noe.
but i dont mind.
and on my mum face was her smile.
and doc gave mi a refer letter to kkh.
and then baby daddy send mi a sms askin mi about the result.
i reply him "positive"
and less then 10 sec. he reply ler.
"what do u mean by positive?"
=.=! lolx.
i told him i am pregnant.
he didnt say much but jus reply. "oh. okie."
but i knew he is unhappi ler.
i went home, and feel sick cos of the mornin sickness.
and baby daddy come to my hse ler.
is jus like normal.
he sayang mi like he would do.
hug him to slp too.
and nobody mention anithing even my mum.
my mum is happi, cos she like baby daddy alot.
but i noe. i have nth to say except a sorry to her.
had sort it out wit baby daddy.
if he cant manage to get a job.
and i will listen to him and go for the abortion.
as we both quited our jobs months ago.
but i reali don wanna lose my baby.
so for that i cried alot of time. and pray so hard for baby daddy to get a job.
he still acc mi everyday.
but i noe he didnt wanna even mention about the lil life in mi.
so is still like we are livin in our own world.
but i noe is impossible ler.
on the 22nd of april 2009.
i had a veri bad stomache.
so mum decided to bring mi down to yishun.
to see a gynae to check on baby.
i first see my baby.
feelin so happi.
i nearly cried.
as in this lil thing is onli 8cm small.
and baby had quite a sharp nose.
doc told mi that baby was 2 weeks smaller then expected.
and kinda blame myself for not eatin much.
sorry baby.
on the 24april 2009.
went to break the news to baby daddy mum.
i alone wit my mum.
baby daddy jus left mi alone to settle thing wit his mum and suddenly i feel.
is pointless ler.
thing started to change.
i went back home and insisted he meet mi under my blk to talk to mi.
i cried and waited for him under my blk for hrs.
and finally at 3am plus. he reach.
is like ended up everything was my fault.
but afterall.
nth gonna be the same animore.
but for baby sake.
i told myself i gotto be stronger.
but everybody was so afraid of mi havin depression.
baby daddy came to my hse in the evenin next day to talk to my dad.
and all my dad say was.
"pregnant alreadi jus go rom ba"
but i noe my answer regradin this ler.
i don wanna married such a irresponsible guy.
i still love him alot.
but if that is the way he wanna treat mi and baby.
i rather i be alone.
and is the veri last time he step into my hse ler.
and then on may. i finally decide to leave him for goddness sake.
but i donnoe why, this "COMPLICATED" relationship still continue.
then we lost contact for nearly a month.
and i actualli lie to him that i will go for the abortion.
but all my frenx and his family and my family noe my decision is to keep baby.
on the 20th may 2009.
my sec meetin wit baby.
and baby was lyin wit both hands under her head and legs up!
baby daddy mum bought mi to kkh de.
i was so happi but again.
i cried, i knew i jus wanna do something to protect my baby.
so i choose to leave her daddy.
i had all my frenx wit mi.
supportin my decision. they dote on mi and takkaire of mi.
so every of my baby appointment.
baby daddy mum was the one who bring mi to hospital.
11th june(kkh), 23rd july(kkh), 6th of aug(gleneangles)
onli on the 03th of sept 2009.
baby daddy met our princess for the veri first time.
from his look i noe he was happi.
and i too feel happi for the veri first and last time.
cos i am letting him go as he had a gf wit him ler.
i am upset.
but i got no reason to keep him by myside.
and baby next appointment will be on her daddy bday.
1st oct 2009, children day.
he mus be busy celebratin wit his new love.
but i have decided to let go ler.
so we stop contactin after that.
and till now.
i guess, i couldnt be a cry baby animore too.
baby needs mi to be brave.
and 77 more days to baby dion birth.
i hope and pray hard that nth would happen to mi.
cos i wanna see my baby too.
if anithing might happen. i jus wanna have a look at her.
that's all.
i wanna tell her i love her alot.
then everyone who see her, could help mi to give her a kiss and tell her, her mummy reali love her alot.
on the next appt.
i wanna go face the reality myself.
doc is gonna go through my report and see wherede i could give birth to baby naturally.
i wanted her to be out naturally.
but it add on to my danger.
for her, i am willingly doin everything.
hao ler la.
now that she is kickin mi for lunch!
hungry girl!
lolx.
blog later=)
xuemin