i am veri tired today.
is not that i wanna kpo and interfer.
but is reali no ppl to help out in this funeral.
today set up onli done by mi, my dad, my mum, grand ma and uncle.
and is a lot more to do when i have to entertain my own relative!
they are not talkin about thing related.
but is my baby girl and tupid r/s stuff.
they scolded mi for being tupid not gettin married wit baby daddy!
they scolded mi for being immature.
i ended up tellin them.
alot of thing i don wanna mention out to them is cos i don wan their impression to baby daddy so bad.
so no matter how they wanna scold mi.
i am gonna stick to being a single mum!
after they heard mi sayin this, their reactions was.
"we can feel that u love him more then hating him"
i have thought alot about how baby daddy hurt mi previously.
feel that i am rather tupid to forgive him over and over again.
read through all those msg he sended mi when he wanted mi to abort baby.
i reali feel i couldnt forgive him.
i am reali tired ler.
now jus wan to concentrate on expecting baby, funeral and after that baby stuff plus a plan made by myself.
i promise nth i do will effect baby princess de.
cos i love her more then myself.
ppl who noes mi will noe that how much i wanna see her and protect her.
life is so unpredictable.
i jus wanna let my daughter to have a prefect life.
i am quite unhappi ,tired this few days.
but after everything settle.
i will be okie ler ba.
thx all babes who try to cheer mi up and comfort mi.
love u all.
counting down 86 days to see baby dion ler.
xuemin