i am suppose to blog since 10.30pm.
but was enjoyin plurkin wit my babes/loves.
lolx.
was talkin about after my dion out, my ladies nite!!
lolx.
no husband and bf is allow! lolx
and i guess we are all gonna drink till we drunk okie! lolx.
cant wait.
and this is my life! i am suppose to be like this.
clubbin and pubs/ alcohol and beers.
today was a veri tired day for mi.
actualli meetin jiahui de.
i miss her, but baby daddy mum met mi out.
to ikea and courts.
baby dion had her first meal at home today mornin.
cakes and strawberry milk!
sec one at 12 plus wit my mum and third meals at ikea wit her granny at 2pm.
lolx. then we go walk walk. wanted to see her cot.
but end up. all cannot make it.
then no choice nv buy.
lolx.
then went courts.
baby daddy mum end up spendin 3000 bucks of new L leather sofa.
lolx.
till 5 plus worx. so tired.
and weather sux today man!
hahax.
went home.
lazy to go out eat but no choice damn hungry.
end up bought kfc went to da yi hse.
then da yi scolded mi for buyin kfc when she got cook at her hse!
then no choice eat her rice.
and come home to finish up my kfc!
my baby dion gain weight today for sure. lolx.
i am so tired.
but wonderin wherede later should i go and have supper wit sam??
today talk alot of thing wit baby daddy mum.
i told her i am feelin veri angry of her son attitude.
she asked mi to jus talk to him when i feel rather pointless.
what he did for my baby?
what is our agreement?
what is all those sorry and forgiveness?
i jus don wanna disappoint her. so i jus nod my head.
but what i reali wan now from him.
i feel hurt, after so much i did.
but he is showin mi he is livin better off without mi by his side.
i cried talkin to precious today.
i don understand why.
why am i so dumb?
to believe him over and over again.
to love and dote him when he is jus toyin mi.
to do everything for him so willingly.
to protect him and hurt myself.
when he jus happily throw mi aside.
i don wanna talk about him.
but his mum and my topic is all about him.
i nearly cried talkin to her.
but i fake a smile, and tell her "aunt, i done my best ler"
xuemin