wa! finally got mood to blog ler.
don reali rmb what i did for the past few days. but jus knew that i am sick today!
havin a bad sore throat and flu which make mi feel difficult in breathing.
i am veri tired.
so wanna go slp ler.
i will try to take pic of what mi and baby daddy bought for lil princess.
is the veri first time daddy did something for baby princess.
and watch movie wit her.
i some how hope those aunties could stop their gossiping about ppl ler.
last 2 days i have heard ppl talkin about mi again.
if i am reali like what u all said.
i won choose to be alone suffering here ler.
everybodi asked mi not to be too bothered about what those aunties were to say.
as now, important things for mi to do is to takkaire of myself.
i could onli smile to them and say i am all rite.
but again stayin alone at home crying again.
i jus wanna give birth to my baby and give her her life that she deserve.
am i wrong?
i am tryin hard.
reali hard to overcome everything that is hurting mi.
but why cant u all leave mi alone?
if i wanted this baby jus becos of my baby daddy familes are rich.
i won be here alone lerx.
i jus wan baby princess to be safe and sound.
i jus wanna see her out.
i jus wanna hug and spend the rest of my life wit her.
can anibodi tell mi have i done anithing wrong protecting her lil life?
pls give mi a peaceful life ba.
i have been feeling quite unwell this few days.
my gynea(dr lee) has called mi to ask mi to takkaire of myself.
not to eat sweet, fried, cold stuff.
and asked mi to drink more water, rest snd slp more.
where else my chinese doc asked mi not to eat sour and oily stuff.
i feel that my virginal is tearing.
feel so painful.
the infection seems so bad.
haix
as mention by gynea, i am not suppose to walk so much.
but how am i goin to buy my baby stuff?
her bed and all this i hope i could be the one choosing for her.
baby daddy mum was so sweet to this lil princess.
she bought some towels(big and small)
and one of the big towel cost 17 bucks!
and i told her we could actualli use it as a blanket for baby when she is born.
cos is a veri veri smooth and soft material.
i could feel my baby girl kickin mi so hard!
but she did alot to cheer her mummy.
i greeted her gd nite everynite before i slp.
and she would be so manner to kick mi once.
and then i would ask her wherede she love mummy.
she will jus kick mi another time and i will tell her
"mummy love u too"
and then soundly slep till she is hungry.
without her, i might be so lonely now.
what i need wasnt ppl accompanying mi.
but what i truely need is ppl to understand mi like my baby girl.
no matter what, i hope baby could nv leave mi.
even daddy cant take u away from mi.
tml mornin i am gonna wake up early to massage my leg.
and i am gonna stay at home to rest.
hopefully no more medicine to be given to mi.
cos i haven even finish half of mine medicine here.
i am too sick today to eat rice.
but my mum onli cook rice and fried stuff!
i didnt wanna waste her food.
jus ate the fish and rice and some vegetables.
but i feel like eating congee.
my fav congee. that is cook by Broccoli and carrot.
i rmb everytime i sick, mummy will olways cook it for mi de.
maybe jus for today i wanna be like a small girl.
i jus feel veri sick, but i didnt tell her.
and i am unhappi.
i jus wanna be like a young girl to continue to be pampered by mummies today.
mummy didnt buy broccoli and that she cant cook it for mi.
nvm ba.
ate maggi instead.
now throat is hurting.
i couldnt speak so much either.
i am gonna take my medicine and rest lerx.
now goin 3am ler.
i olways slp so late.
nite eveybody=)
i love my baby girl!
xuemin