sorry readers for not bloggin for this 2 days.
but when i wanted to blog ystd.
blogger something wrong again.
on the 1st of aug. i stayed whole day at home
after i came home from my massage.
hmmm.
mi and mum went to choong pang to eat too.
and went home to slp lerx.
till afternoon wake up to eat and slp again.
and woke up again at 5 plus.
and all the way till 11pm. i slept. and woke up around 1 am.
donnoe for what olso.
but eat again!
lolx.
and till 3 am plus.
i offline and planned to slp lerx.
but ended up rollin on my bed for hrs till 7am.
thx goddness.
so tired.
but was countin baby heartbeat every min
was tryin to feel baby heartbeat.
was tryin to talk to baby.
was tryin to make baby kick mi.
was doin everything to make baby react to mi.
but nth works.
finally slept at 7am.
but woke up at 2pm.
eat
online and went out meet jiahui.
and today the jerk came to pass mi my ren sheng powder.
but i jus took and leave.
i don feel a need lookin at him when i am still angry about that nite.
tml afternoon when i am free, i will blog out the smses wit him on the 31st.
but today i will jus write out some of the smses first.
on the 1st aug. he sms mi twice. one is at 8:27pm
junde:
sorri bout yeste..i reali lost mysel.i tire til i lose my mind.sorri and sorri to min er too.
the other sms is at 3:49am
junde:
sorri min er..hop u don angri o hate daddy.daddy nod is his fault le.sorri.i miss u baby. nite..
and both i didnt bother to reply. cos i jus don feel that he deserve to be forgive
till today i onli sms him to get back my ren sheng powder.
and till 3:32am, which is around 45 mins ago.
junde:
min er,daddy cant wait to see u out..when i see baby around,i tin of u.u too wanna see daddy rite?so mus stay healthy and be good to mummy k.daddy love u.nite=)
xuemin:stop actin like as if u care.ask ppl baby to be urs ba.
junde:
don show mi yr attitud again ok.i nod i'm in fault tat nite and i apologies 2 u le.i reali love min er.unless she don wan mi and i'll go. i don wish 2 lose her..
xuemin:
and do u fuckin noe my baby heartbeat is still as weak as that day. do u noe i am still counting her heartbeat till now. do u noe if that day u are down we may feel better. after all those hurt. u apologise. jus like what u did before.iam still worryin about baby. but do u care! am i wrong to show my attitude? or i cant be the one. where are u when we need u. my baby is still in danger now. is a no warnin bomb.but i am still tryin now. but i still get no reaction. baby don need a daddy who onli care for his own happinedd. who onli put himself first. who onli wan himself to be happi.who jus wanna enjoy his life now thou baby needs him. i gave u a chance. but once again stepped on my heart again.who is the one should be upset. who is the one who deserve to be tired. u onli say u. but mi?
and this time round i am reali serious about him being a disappoinment to mi, his family and my family.
i donnoe, but jus veri veri upset.
i don wish baby to get involve wit this type of jerk!
fuck off my life and baby.
we don need u.
xuemin