decide to start my blog again..
dion is a big girl now.. she was my life..
i was told, that having a baby girl is always better then having a baby boy..
i am glad, that i had this girl by my side when i am upset, or even sick..
i was down wit flu and cough lately..
she sat by myside and let mi had my rest while she quietly watch tv,,
the sweetest part was, she cover my eyes wit her precious bean pillow..
is enough already..
every lil thing that she does for mi..
i always keep it in mi and tell myself, not matter what is gonna happen, as long as she is by myside..
i will not fall..
texted her dad last week, to make him go to school on 8th june..
but to my surprise he ask mi to remind him again and say he will go..
well..
for all these yrs, ppl will wanna know about mi and baby dad..
he is living well.. he got his freedom that i return to him..
only on every sunday that baby girl would go back to his side..
i will start to blog again on this blog..
hope to blog more often too..
i am already 22th this yr.. and princess is turning 4 in this nov..
so well..
time flies..
xuemin
nv thought i can be more happier then what i have now..
i have dion, i have him..
a guy that love mi and dote mi most..
i didnt know i can have a love like this after dion dad...
he ruin my life jus becos of a word, "sry"
but now i had him who jus want mi to be by his side..
who look at mi when i am slping and touch my head gently till he felt aslp..
who are afraid that i am unwell, unhappy or even upset..
will olways try his best to show mi that no matter what happen, i will olways have him by myside..
compare to what he did for mi..
i felt sry that i couldnt give more..
had tried my best to spend more time wit him..
i am not a gd gf..
i am someone who has a very high expectation..
i am someone who olways being a perfectionist..
he tried so hard to compromise to mi..
his only wish is to see mi wake up wit a smile and slp soundly at night..
i understand him so much..
that sometime i have to even pretend i don know..
to see what silly things he wanna do..
i love u sweetheart:)
baby dionprincess chalet this comin sunday..
thx to my elder sister that helped mi wit most of the preparation..
and we all will be goin to wild wild wet before the chalet starts..
is been so long the whole family get to gathers ..
is been so long that all of us get to enjoy..
chalet is a very gd choice..
we all look forward to it..
i wan dion to be the happiest girl on her bday..
jus thinking about her, i smile..
mummy love u sweetheart:)
i told my boss that i wanna resign ystd..
but she reject my resignation..
she in fact told mi she will be changing plans for mi..
but i will jus have to bear a few months..
i don like politics..
i don like to work wit ppl that is scheming
but i olways feel alot better wit my boss around..
she told mi whenever i have any problems i can bypass and go straight to her..
still deciding actually...
alot of fucked up problems lately..
i needed to rest thou..
needed time for princess too..
xuemin
hihi,
so long since i blog again..
has been very very busy..
busy working.. busy wit dion, busy wit dion bday party..
and busy wit him..
i am looking forward to 13th nov..
dion bday chalet..
and of course..
a day that belong to mi and him..
of course.. dion is gonna be the role model on that day..
i wanna make her the happiest and sweetest princess:)
dion poh xiang qin, mummy love u..
xuemin
i miss baobei so much now... she is in skool..
early in the morning, she is reprimanded by my sis and mum for not wanting to drink..
and being very bad temper..
i kept quiet there.. not becos she is not in the fault.. but is becos, i felt sry..
for not having enough time to teach her..
when she has mi around, she doesnt seems to be afraid of anyone..
becos mummy won allow them to beat her..
and i wouldnt scold her..
i will jus pls her to listen..
i think i fail to be a mummy right?
but my point is to make her listen even when i don beat her and scold her..
at least she only listen to mi..
but...
her daddy is so busy that he didnt reply..
i wanted to tell him and help mi think of a solution to guild dion...
dion had some mosquito bites and is kinda serious after returning from daddy hse..
or maybe he feels guilty to reply..
i didnt scold him..
i jus tell him not to let mi be the last to know..
i had to hear the skool teacher telling mi, then my parents scolding mi on the phone jus becos they felt so heartache..
how would i feel then?
dion is my gem..
she is someone i went through all pains and see her grow..
i had to be scolded when i didnt even know..
i cried myself too..
but what ever happen had happened..
no point blaming each other for the mishap...
i had so much in work..
i had so much to handle..
i had to keep myself sick free..
as i had 5 outlets, and dion to look after..
but i am jus tired..
sometimes when i see dion misbehaving..
i really felt like tendering my resignation letter jus becos i can spend more time wit her..
2 jobs offer awaiting mi..
2 gd offer..
but i still wanna do my best till next yr when everything goes on track..
it may be the toughest time now for mi..
but the road ahead for mi is longer..
being a single mum, i had so much to learn..
dion dad doesnt seems to be in great help to mi..
thou i wish he can..
i had to speak to him like how i speak to dion..
i had to pls him to help..
he is not working now..
but he doesnt seems to be worry..
maybe all ppl was right..
i too pampered him too much..
how will it become when suddenly, i am not around..
what will happen to my princess..
i needed more rest now..
gonna tidy up my room and rest..
attending boss wedding in sentosa two more days..
had lots of thing to plan for work..
and of course, i would wanna spend more time wit princess..
xuemin
i am a happy girl lately..
since i decide to work hard in work till next yr apr..
boss wanna ask mi to stay..
change my working hr to office hr..
but becos of some internal problem..
i don think i will wanna stay on...
dion recover from hand food mouth too....
and today she is back to skool to celebrate childrens day:)
have been tough past few weeks..
but i will have a tougher road ahead the next few months..
xmas coming..
all of the outlet has to be closely monitor..
sales has not been very gd..
but i believe, using my means to push up..
to be thankful to my bosses who treated mi so nice..
no time for other thing..
jus dion and work..
back to track and i feels so gd..
gonna go dion skool and pass the skool the doctor letter..
soon gonna take up car lesson..
and hope asap to get my licence..
i need a car badly to travel...
xuemin